( Emil listens very intently, maybe a little bit of a rarity for him. As Lalli goes on, more than he's heard him talk in one burst since he somehow became inebriated, his stomach twists tighter and tighter.
Maybe it's not so much the words, but the posture. Despite the language barrier being broken, that's what Emil's used to reading. The words just sort of cement the message he's receiving. It adds a level to the defeated emotion he's already feeling, making his words very level and measured while his ears droop. Maybe he did do the wrong thing, even if his intentions were good. )
It's not like I think being a scout is bad. I thought you would feel better if you could find something else to do while you're here.
( It's also a little hurtful for some reason. Something that maybe bothers him more than it should. He knows Lalli is his friend and he's realized that he has more hangups than he thought about his whole scouting thing. Maybe he should feel flattered that Lalli's still taking his safety so seriously, but...
"Part of my job." Something about that stings a little. Perhaps it's something a little selfish. Of course it's part of Lalli's job to keep his teammates safe, but is feeling so strongly about wanting to protect him because of his job or because he's Emil's friend? Originally he thought getting Lalli to do something else might make him happier, but if he dropped being a scout for whatever reason, would that make him less important? )
You don't have to take care of me here because you're the mission scout. This place is different... I just don't understand why you really want to keep scouting so badly. ( Not that he wouldn't like to. It's not an easy thing to say, either. He knows Lalli wants him to understand, and he's sort of explained a little bit, but he just doesn't get it right now. )
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Maybe it's not so much the words, but the posture. Despite the language barrier being broken, that's what Emil's used to reading. The words just sort of cement the message he's receiving. It adds a level to the defeated emotion he's already feeling, making his words very level and measured while his ears droop. Maybe he did do the wrong thing, even if his intentions were good. )
It's not like I think being a scout is bad. I thought you would feel better if you could find something else to do while you're here.
( It's also a little hurtful for some reason. Something that maybe bothers him more than it should. He knows Lalli is his friend and he's realized that he has more hangups than he thought about his whole scouting thing. Maybe he should feel flattered that Lalli's still taking his safety so seriously, but...
"Part of my job." Something about that stings a little. Perhaps it's something a little selfish. Of course it's part of Lalli's job to keep his teammates safe, but is feeling so strongly about wanting to protect him because of his job or because he's Emil's friend? Originally he thought getting Lalli to do something else might make him happier, but if he dropped being a scout for whatever reason, would that make him less important? )
You don't have to take care of me here because you're the mission scout. This place is different... I just don't understand why you really want to keep scouting so badly. ( Not that he wouldn't like to. It's not an easy thing to say, either. He knows Lalli wants him to understand, and he's sort of explained a little bit, but he just doesn't get it right now. )