( Oops, he can't help but Big Sigh at that. He knows now!! The thing is still in his fridge!!! Still, Emil can't fault Lalli for reminding him of that shitty morning. He's personally of two minds, since looking back? Yeah that was...bad. But he also knows where his own mind was at, so he is a little defensive of A Few Days Ago Emil. )
I didn't mean to hurt you. It's just...I didn't think you could ever see me as someone to like. And if you just got me the cake to be nice, not to tell me anything bigger than that, and I thought you did mean something bigger and responded to it...that would have been embarrassing.
( It was also definitely more than that, which he'd cautiously accepted over the next days. ) If I'd said something to you and you thought I was gross or insane, and if that made you feel awkward around me, I...
( Emil trails off. His mind tries to go back to shutting out those negative thoughts, and he lets it this time -- that didn't happen. It's alright, even though his stomach flips a little at even the subconscious consideration. )
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I didn't mean to hurt you. It's just...I didn't think you could ever see me as someone to like. And if you just got me the cake to be nice, not to tell me anything bigger than that, and I thought you did mean something bigger and responded to it...that would have been embarrassing.
( It was also definitely more than that, which he'd cautiously accepted over the next days. ) If I'd said something to you and you thought I was gross or insane, and if that made you feel awkward around me, I...
( Emil trails off. His mind tries to go back to shutting out those negative thoughts, and he lets it this time -- that didn't happen. It's alright, even though his stomach flips a little at even the subconscious consideration. )