( He's...so proud. Lisko begins singing along to one of the game songs, obviously about something not...normal. Emil sighs, knowing he can't win against his bizarre boyfriend and loopy lizard. )
Fine. I guess I can't complain as long as it isn't a curse word. ( Lisko agrees, breaking their melody to assuredly say 'Fuck.')
[To further illustrate Emil's point, Lalli is retaliating with a hiss and sticking out his own tongue, though he keeps it to himself. He's not a monster.]
Well, they get their -- food. And foolishness? From you. Stop that, that's gross.
[Listen, he's preoccupied, he can't come up with something better than that.]
( Nope!! Not stopping. Lots of lizard nyehs for Lalli's hand. )
Foolishness? They get their cuteness from me. ( He cant help but laugh at the glimpses of Lisko's tongue he sees peeking around Lalli's hand. ) You deserve ever drop of that horrible lizard spit.
( God you fucking asshole...deja vu and all that, even if it may be in reverse. Well, sort of. Anyway, Emil wipes off as much of the saliva as possible, instead of cake this time, and slaps it over Lalli's own mouth.
[It's nice to know that this is just the rest of his life.]
Mmph!!
[Hand at his mouth like that, Emil will be able to feel the way Lalli's jaw shifts and...stops. Lalli freezes, eyes wide.
He can't bite him. He'll get a mouthful of lizard spit and it would be all his fault. This realization comes with a deplorable whine and Lalli's arms going limp.
( Victory is his! Lisko rolls over and waddles off, suddenly interested in finding other things to lick. They are alone. Emil has enacted his revenge.
He won't be too cruel. Emil removes his hand after a moment, and wipes it on Lalli's likely unused bedsheets. ) That's payback for licking me and making me lick a lizard tongue.
[Even though he's free, Lalli huffs and crosses his arms, unhappy to have been bested. Unfair...! He lets his eyes roam after Lisko, because not giving Emil the satisfaction of being watched seems like a worthy punishment. And he doesn't want them to eat something weird.]
I did not make you lick their tongue. That just happened.
[His nose wrinkles distastefully. Ugh, he doesn't waaant a truce... It's also really fun to slap random stuff into Emil's face. Still, he gives a grumble of agreement.]
( He can still slap Emil with random shit, just not lizard spit. At least Emil feels a little more playful about it, content in just...stupid stuff.
Actually, there is this...lightness to him, now. He can feel this lack of pressure that had been weighing him down lately. Everything just feels so...nice. Despite propping up the wall against Lalli's bed, he's definitely still at ease. )
I just realized how bad I felt before. Now it's just...gone. ( He's still sort of shell-shocked at everything, not including his own Sudden Emotional Realization. All the while, he stares stupidly at the lizard that's crawled back out from their murky depths. ) I still don't think I think this is real.
[Lizard spit is just so accessible... He mourns this loss right up until Emil's words set in and he feels a little smile form on his own lips. With a hum, he sets his back to the wall alongside Emil, and his expression does well to convey all the contented feelings warming his heart.]
...Yeah. It doesn't feel real, but it's still a lot better. And I know it's real, so...
( It's pretty domestic bliss. There's indeed something complimentary in being liked, and of course that goes both ways. Lalli's tiny smile feels a little snug to Emil, but it's still nice.
He doesn't feel that same self-assuredness at the moment, though. )
I feel kind of...dumb. ( You heard it here, folks. ) That wasn't nearly as catastrophic as I told Akira I thought it would be.
[Good, he thinks but doesn't say, and manages to keep it off the telepathic connection, too. He is dumb. Really dumb.]
It felt catastrophic. Before. [He gets it, at the very least.] Mmn. It's like getting ready for a big battle. And you think you're gonna die. But then nothing comes.
( Emil nods at that, having said something...similar to Akira. Not so dire or earth-shattering, but similar all the same. He Gets It, and that's nice. He doesn't have to worry. )
Akira...said that it was obvious what was going on, but I had no idea. When he said I should do something about it, I thought about you...it made sense, but I also thought about how if I said anything, everything might change. In a bad way, anyway. ( Everything had changed, but it all shifted in the opposite direction. )
I guess part of me thought it would be better to feel bad for a while instead of never being able to be friends with you, or something else like that. ( He'd alluded to this earlier, but saying it out loud in more detail has its own freeing quality to it. That nervous idea in the back of his mind was totally unfounded, and he'd now get to have more nervous, giddy butterflies to put there instead. )
[IT WAS A HEART!!!! Lalli sighs and draws his legs up to wrap his arms around, trying not to be too bothered since... Yeah. He did get it. He'd been struggling with it, himself.]
You're different, so I thought it would be okay. You always come back to me, for some reason. I thought...even if you didn't like me back, it would be okay. [His stomach churns, the discomfort caused by the conversation sleeping into his physical state as well. He should have been able to let it go. There was nothing to worry about, now. Emil likes him.] But then it was like it was more than impossible. It really...hurt. To just be ignored.
( Oops, he can't help but Big Sigh at that. He knows now!! The thing is still in his fridge!!! Still, Emil can't fault Lalli for reminding him of that shitty morning. He's personally of two minds, since looking back? Yeah that was...bad. But he also knows where his own mind was at, so he is a little defensive of A Few Days Ago Emil. )
I didn't mean to hurt you. It's just...I didn't think you could ever see me as someone to like. And if you just got me the cake to be nice, not to tell me anything bigger than that, and I thought you did mean something bigger and responded to it...that would have been embarrassing.
( It was also definitely more than that, which he'd cautiously accepted over the next days. ) If I'd said something to you and you thought I was gross or insane, and if that made you feel awkward around me, I...
( Emil trails off. His mind tries to go back to shutting out those negative thoughts, and he lets it this time -- that didn't happen. It's alright, even though his stomach flips a little at even the subconscious consideration. )
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I got many full combos.
[So ha! Let him have this, okay.]
It's a fun game. Some of the stories are even okay. They have to work really hard.
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Fine. I guess I can't complain as long as it isn't a curse word. ( Lisko agrees, breaking their melody to assuredly say 'Fuck.' )
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No.
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They're so unruly. They get their stubbornness from you. ( Also the tongue thing. )
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Well, they get their -- food. And foolishness? From you. Stop that, that's gross.
[Listen, he's preoccupied, he can't come up with something better than that.]
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Foolishness? They get their cuteness from me. ( He cant help but laugh at the glimpses of Lisko's tongue he sees peeking around Lalli's hand. ) You deserve ever drop of that horrible lizard spit.
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[Oh. Is that so.
Lalli removes his slobbery hand from Lisko's mouth and pushes it against Emil's cheek.]
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WHY!? I've already gotten enough lizard saliva on me for one lifetime...in my mouth, even!!
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You kissed a lizard. [ha] Don't be so mean to me next time.
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How you like them apples?? )
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Mmph!!
[Hand at his mouth like that, Emil will be able to feel the way Lalli's jaw shifts and...stops. Lalli freezes, eyes wide.
He can't bite him. He'll get a mouthful of lizard spit and it would be all his fault. This realization comes with a deplorable whine and Lalli's arms going limp.
He has been defeated.]
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He won't be too cruel. Emil removes his hand after a moment, and wipes it on Lalli's likely unused bedsheets. ) That's payback for licking me and making me lick a lizard tongue.
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I did not make you lick their tongue. That just happened.
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You put the chain of events in motion, so it's your fault. Not to mention that whole handful you just rubbed on my face!
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Not my fault you deserved it.
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Fine. I declare a lizard spit truce. No more on either one of us, unless Lisko expressly puts it there.
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Fine. Lizard spit truce.
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Actually, there is this...lightness to him, now. He can feel this lack of pressure that had been weighing him down lately. Everything just feels so...nice. Despite propping up the wall against Lalli's bed, he's definitely still at ease. )
I just realized how bad I felt before. Now it's just...gone. ( He's still sort of shell-shocked at everything, not including his own Sudden Emotional Realization. All the while, he stares stupidly at the lizard that's crawled back out from their murky depths. ) I still don't think I think this is real.
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...Yeah. It doesn't feel real, but it's still a lot better. And I know it's real, so...
[Ugh, he's happy. That's so...weird.]
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He doesn't feel that same self-assuredness at the moment, though. )
I feel kind of...dumb. ( You heard it here, folks. ) That wasn't nearly as catastrophic as I told Akira I thought it would be.
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It felt catastrophic. Before. [He gets it, at the very least.] Mmn. It's like getting ready for a big battle. And you think you're gonna die. But then nothing comes.
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Akira...said that it was obvious what was going on, but I had no idea. When he said I should do something about it, I thought about you...it made sense, but I also thought about how if I said anything, everything might change. In a bad way, anyway. ( Everything had changed, but it all shifted in the opposite direction. )
I guess part of me thought it would be better to feel bad for a while instead of never being able to be friends with you, or something else like that. ( He'd alluded to this earlier, but saying it out loud in more detail has its own freeing quality to it. That nervous idea in the back of his mind was totally unfounded, and he'd now get to have more nervous, giddy butterflies to put there instead. )
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[IT WAS A HEART!!!! Lalli sighs and draws his legs up to wrap his arms around, trying not to be too bothered since... Yeah. He did get it. He'd been struggling with it, himself.]
You're different, so I thought it would be okay. You always come back to me, for some reason. I thought...even if you didn't like me back, it would be okay. [His stomach churns, the discomfort caused by the conversation sleeping into his physical state as well. He should have been able to let it go. There was nothing to worry about, now. Emil likes him.] But then it was like it was more than impossible. It really...hurt. To just be ignored.
[glances at this hypocrite]
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I didn't mean to hurt you. It's just...I didn't think you could ever see me as someone to like. And if you just got me the cake to be nice, not to tell me anything bigger than that, and I thought you did mean something bigger and responded to it...that would have been embarrassing.
( It was also definitely more than that, which he'd cautiously accepted over the next days. ) If I'd said something to you and you thought I was gross or insane, and if that made you feel awkward around me, I...
( Emil trails off. His mind tries to go back to shutting out those negative thoughts, and he lets it this time -- that didn't happen. It's alright, even though his stomach flips a little at even the subconscious consideration. )
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Mmn. You do embarrassing, gross, insane things all the time, you know. It's fine for you.
[...or he could just. keep being an ass.]
It really is weird you'd like me. I like that you do, of course, but... Yes. It feels weird. Scary.
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